When it comes to Bucky and pre-serum Steve, do you prefer pining Bucky, or pining Steve?
Oh, that one is easy, noonie. Both.
See, I am convinced that those silly boys fell in love the moment they met, and I’m usually adverse to that trope. I guess their tragic story brings out the hopeless romantic in me. But, back on topic. My personal belief is that they’ve both been pining for years, but in different ways.
In Steve’s case, he accepted early on that it was a hopeless thing and that it was greedy of him. Bucky is amazing and perfect and the pillar of Steve’s life; it’s incredible that Bucky is even his best friend, so to wish for more would be selfish and miserly. Hence he is quietly worshipping Bucky from a safe distance, in quiet, and has made peace with his constant heartache.
Bucky, on the other hand, is a lot more torn. Because Steve is everything that is good in this world, he’s puppies and kittens and rainbows and sunshine and cake crammed into one sickly little body, and Bucky loves him so much he doesn’t know what to do with himself. He is also so very much aware that he doesn’t deserve Steve, because Steve is pure light and goodness while Bucky has a darkness inside him, and the last thing he wants is to sully Steve with it. So he tries to ignore it but fails pretty spectacularly at it, but he also accepts that it’s the price for knowing Steve; you adore him so much it hurts, but you also gets to live in his light.
I suppose this is entirely headcanon, but I believe the main reason for these differences is that Steve and Bucky love differently.
Let’s start with Steve. I personally am convinced Steve is a little in love with all of his friends, in a nice non-painful way.
I don’t see this as Steve being unfaithful at all. It’s simply that Steve is one big heart in a body too small to contain it. He loves his family, his friends, his neighbourhood, New York, America, the whole world. He’s a tsunami of love that never ends and just keeps going. I’m not saying he acts on his emotions or that he even wants to; I’m just saying that he loves brightly and intensely and loyally.
The most difficult thing with dating Steve Rogers would probably be his I love everybody attitude, rather than him being Captain America. It might take possessive people a while to realize that Steve’s devotion is as strong as his love.
Speaking of possessive people, hi Bucky!
If Steve is overflowing with love and bleeding it all over the ground, then Bucky is the opposite. He has oceans of love in his heart, but instead of giving it out freely to everyone, he focuses it all on Steve. Oh, I’m sure he’s loved the girls gone steady with, and he loved the Howling Commandos, but has there ever been any doubt that Steve is the first and foremost in Bucky’s heart?
There is a dark, possessive streak in Bucky which wants to be the only one who loves Steve; to keep Steve his own precious secret. And before anyone yells at me for vilifying our precious Bucky, I said a streak. I am also convinced that Bucky hates that part of himself and actively squashes that urge whenever it pops up. If you ask me, it’s a desire born from protectiveness and adoration, and although twisted to being less than benign, it’s not purposefully malign either. It’s simply is, in the most human way.
And now I realize I veered way off course again and apologize. The short answer to your question, noonie, is that I prefer an epic pining fest between the two of them.(gif sources: sorrelrum & mishasminions & maria-sokoli)
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